Today was a great day. I enjoyed being pampered and celebrated and all that. But since I've been a Mom (4 years now), Mother's Day has meant something a little bit different to me. It has, oddly enough, been more about them- Them meaning my kids. Mother's Day has me thinking about what it means to be me... how I appear to my kids... how I want to appear to them.
When I was pregnant with Lily, I was really nervous about how my life was going to change. Would I be a good mom? What if she and I don't really hit it off? How can I raise a confident, smart, compassionate, self-aware human being?
When the Doctor placed Lily on my chest for the first time I thought my heart was going to explode out of my chest. It felt as though this trap door opened up that I never knew existed. I had no idea I could love someone so much. Yeah, I guess we hit it off...
As the overly- used- but- true saying goes: Be the change you wish to see in the world.
I have learned that, in order to raise my children to be all of those things, I must be those things: confident, smart, compassionate, self-aware, kind, honest, hard-working, brave, sensitive, loving, giving, and on and on. I work on this every day. Some days I don't do so well but like I tell my daughter "Tomorrow is a new day". We need to remember that in every single thing we do: Tomorrow is a new day.
I have posted a video of one of my faves, John Butler Trio, singing a song about his newborn daughter. I have listened to this song a million times and it gets me every single time... I hope you enjoy it.